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Wednesday, October 12, 2011

October 15th; My Angel Baby

This post is pretty un-related to Bailey but just spreading the word of a day near and dear to my heart! I thought I'd share my story and reasoning why October 15th means so much to me.

Steven & I found out we were pregnant the very first time at the end of March or early April 2007, it was very un-expected and a huge change in our still fresh relationship but we embraced our blessing. Things seemed to go okay throughout the beginning of my pregnancy. I counted down the days, went to the doctors, and we got our very first (and only) sonogram. I did endure several stressors, we moved into an apartment and I started a new job full time. On my very first day of work in June 2007, middle of my shift I started to feel sick and my stomach was in unbearable pain. I tried to stick it out but I started to bleed so I left work early and went straight for the hospital in fear that something was just not right. After hours of sitting at Howard County General and getting an ultrasound they broke the most heartbreaking news... I had lost my very first baby, 15 weeks into my pregnancy. I remember not being able to breathe. They were un-able to tell me if the baby was a boy or a girl so his/her name has just always been "Baby Breeden". They were also un-able to tell me why I lost the baby other than the fact that the baby had something medically wrong so he/she couldn't survive. I had surgery(DNC)the next day to remove the baby, it was one of the hardest things I've ever had to go through. This was the first REAL hardship Steven & I endured together! 6 short months later we found out we were pregnant yet again and 8 months later we were blessed with our beautiful Bailey Grace.

(The only sonogram we had done, one month before the baby passed away)

**Pregnancy & Infant loss Remembrance day is this Saturday, October 15th, please join me in lighting a candle from 7-8pm to remember all of the angel babies who were just too beautiful for earth!

"When a child loses his parent, they are called an orphan. When a spouse loses her or his partner, they are called a widow or widower. When parents lose their child, there isn't a word to describe them."


"Fall into me, my arms are open wide and you don't have to say a word cause I already see that it's hard and you're scared and you're tired and it hurts and I wanna be the one you reach for first."